“There’s no lemon so sour that you can’t make something resembling lemonade.”THIS IS US
Last year, but one month later I was struggling to find something that could bring me joy and hold me together in even the slightest of ways. This year I’m feeling that same struggle and I don’t like the emotions that come with it. I am trying to be proactive in my self-care and recognizing that I need to change up the mundane. My home is where I lose myself, where I can break down, cry, scream and struggle and ironically it is also where I find myself. I find bits and pieces of soul scattered in various nooks and crannies that need to be dusted off and placed back together like a million piece puzzle. Last year I found great comfort in picking up my Canon that my parents gifted me for my high school graduation. I enjoyed snapping photos in hopes to document our journey of grief after losing our infant daughter with a rawness that only someone who was grieving could. There is something about connecting with nature, our animals and ourselves that makes heaven not seem so far away. It’s been awhile but I needed to revisit this, so I gift you with snapshots of our beautiful, lemon filled life.
It’s okay to have breakdowns and throw fits and throw stuff around. It is okay to be mad and sad and jealous. It is okay to be upset. It is okay to be sick of it all. It is okay to not be okay. But, it is not okay to give up.
When you feel like life is providing nothing but lemons, change your lens.