Have you ever been stuck on what your purpose in life is?
If so, you are not alone.
I am striving to become more transparent in my life’s journey and with that comes sharing my heart even more.
I was stuck in an unhealthy mindset for sometime.
I watch so many individuals in my immediate life struggle and to be honest for the last year or so I was there as well.
I go to a place in mind where I feel as though once I’ve accomplished, completed or gotten through something everything will be better.
I will be on top of the world and no one can touch me… this is a mindset and not reality.
Life always slaps you in the face, it’s just how you decide to deal with it.
Awhile ago I was untouchable.
I had the job, the husband, the ranch, the lifestyle but still no baby and then I was fired. One bad thing after another happened to us and I watched people laugh at our trials and tribulations.
Life always does this funny thing of testing you to find out exactly what your purpose here is.
& then a shift happened.
I found out I was finally pregnant with our first baby and I knew that everything that happened, was meant to be.
I am a procrastinator by nature, I grew up in a family where our Dad worked shift when we were little and we obtained a schedule of staying up late and sleeping throughout the morning.
In my adult life, this is still true to me.
I do my best work at night, always.
My focus for this year was to to be more purposeful, to procrastinate less and live with more intention.
I have to be honest… as I usually am. I’ve been doing really well. Our house is becoming more minimal, we are living more on purpose but I’m still procrastinating.
The taxes are still not turned in, my lecture for a seminar that I’m speaking at in 3 weeks is still not complete, I have yet to obtain my dress for a very prestigious event I have next weekend and my house is in sub-par conditions.
Because it seems my reality on time is conflicted. I take on far too much for the mere 24 hours I have in the day.
But do you know what… That’s okay.
Life goes on and I’m human as are we all.
Lately life has looked completely different for us and I thought I would share it with you.
I always thought I would be a stay-at-home mama for Oaks entire life, but I was handed an opportunity.
An opportunity to live out one of my passions and that passion is working with teens. I recently accepted a position working at our local teen center and I couldn’t be more grateful. Working on days when Chad is home, so Oak is still raised entirely by her parents…it’s incredible. It’s giving this mama a part of herself back. It’s making me want to be better and do better for my family and giving me my sense of purpose back outside the home.
As everything happens in my life far beyond the time frame that I had laid out for myself this is no different, just like finally being blessed with our first baby.
Life is unexplained and I find that just like the excruciating pain that all mothers go through in childbirth, such is life. You have to live out the shittiest and most trying of times to finally get the prize at the end. We need to stop focusing on the negatives of each circumstance and instead focus on the prize yet to come.
And the prize my friends, is finding your purpose.
My purpose right now in this moment is: wife, mama, ranch, wellness warrior, teen facilitator.
Focus on what matters.
You’re not stuck, what can you do to pull yourself out of this circumstance?
The positive and not the negative, your mindset is everything.
Set yourself up for success, you’re the only one that can.
You’ve got this.