Dear Baby Backwoods

I remember being a little girl dreaming of my one day babies and my dream is finally being turned into a reality. 

Pregnancy for me is one of the most beautiful things in the world and it’s something to be cherished. 

A lot of people don’t know that we tried to get pregnant for years and it just wasn’t happening for us. Every single month was a disappointment and everytime I was late I got my hopes up only to be crushed by one tiny pink line. I started to grow feelings of hatred towards people that were pregnant or were having yet another baby. It came to the point where I actually unfollowed people on social media so I didn’t have to see their joyous posts…. Because every joyous post for them was one that was filled with pain for me. People would constantly ask us when we were having kids and I became passive aggressive/ aggressive towards these people for being so insensitive. 

A lot of things have changed in my life this year including losing my job and finally being relieved by two pink lines. 

I believe that everything happens for a reason and when I was taken out of a negative environment filled with anxious energy and constant competition between women, I was blessed with the gift of life. I can finally see clearer now and I know that losing my job was the BEST thing that could have ever happened to me, because the best was always yet to come in a tiny bundle. 

I have stopped making excuses to sleep all the time, or avoid being around people. I am no longer dependent on substances and can actually say I am happy. I have began to find joy in all the things I used to love. I appreciate each day and surround myself with positive energies and people whom I want to spend time.

Preparing for you, sweet blessing has become my pass time, fore the gift of your life has saved my life. 

You sweet baby will never know how much I needed you in my life at that time. 

I’m just glad you are my reality. 

I cherish everything about you already. 

I cannot wait to meet you.
Love, Mom  

 

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3 thoughts on “Dear Baby Backwoods

  1. Your baby will be cherished . Your baby will be loved just as you are loved. You were the prettiest little girl with dark eyes and hair. You have grown to be a beautiful young woman with a loving heart. I wish you all the best for your future . Enjoy motherhood with all your heart my dear granddaughter. I am so looking forward to meeting my great grand baby. Love GGma 💘

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